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Homage to Chemo Dads

My husband is a man of many colors, a renaissance man with many cloaks and many talents.  He is humble and kind and doesn’t think much of himself, which is ridiculous, but I can hardly change him or how he sees himself after 14 years.  Much like myself, his soul was marred by our daughter’s… Continue reading Homage to Chemo Dads

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The Eggshell Child

When I was in law school, I remember being in torts class and learning about “the eggshell plaintiff.”  A plaintiff is a person who sues another person in court for injuries.  The Eggshell plaintiff is the person who is injured by something you did, but their injuries are far worse than they would be in… Continue reading The Eggshell Child

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Breakdown of a PTSD Attack for this Chemo Mom

Let me preface this post with this:  Vivi is fine.  My gut says that she’s just teething and in a growth spurt cause she’s eating so much and losing tummy weight and walking now. She has no real symptoms of anything more than normal baby growth stuff. I had a bad PTSD day yesterday that… Continue reading Breakdown of a PTSD Attack for this Chemo Mom

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Don’t Say “She Looks Fine” to the Parent of a Sick Child.

Sophia Tempee was born with Langerhans Cell Histiocytosis ravaging her organs.  She was 6 lbs 8 ounces, bouncing, beautiful, pink with no hair and HUGE dark eyes and no one had a clue, but she was sick. From birth, she puked nearly everything up all the time. I doubled up the formula in her bottles… Continue reading Don’t Say “She Looks Fine” to the Parent of a Sick Child.

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Open Letter to Pediatric Physicians

Dear Pediatricians, First, let me start by thanking you.  You have gone into an impossible field that forces you to see children in pain or dying, and yet you come to work every day and provide care and work towards solutions for children.  You have to help demanding, angry, and scared parents, even when you… Continue reading Open Letter to Pediatric Physicians

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What Remission Looks Like

What if someone you loved had cancer?  Would you think the word “remission” would be the end of the terror?  That your fears would be gone, right?  That it’s okay now, and that your baby or your husband or wife or mom or dad or sibling is going to be fine now, and that you… Continue reading What Remission Looks Like

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PTSD for Parents of Children with Chronic Illnesses.

This $hi+ is real, people.  It’s real.  And this one was a hard one to write.  Not because I didn’t want to put it out there, cause I’m not ashamed.  It happened to me.  It wasn’t something that I chose.  It was hard to write because I had a hard couple of days with this… Continue reading PTSD for Parents of Children with Chronic Illnesses.